look alive, people

spring break 2010.

instead of planting my happy ass in the sand in panama city (like everyone and their mom seems to be this week)

(ah, wouldnt that be nice?)

or wasting time at home
or even taking road trips to see other friends at other schools
...
i am dedicating 5-6 hours a day to time on the water or at the boathouse

rowing spring training.

the good news is it is far less miserable than winter break training (pretty much wanted to die after that week), and the weather is far more pleasant (65 yesterday afternoon--heavenly!)

aaand we've found ways to entertain ourselves

my futon has been the site of a all-afternoon cuddlefest with Kl and V where we've had "mindfuck" movie marathons to include the films: v for vendetta (awesome), memento (AWESOME), and requiem for a dream (CRAZY. WTFFF)

the bad news is...

i pretty much have no use except for like...leftover/-just-in-case-coxswain

which is frustrating. i'm not saying i am the best, but just that i am not accustomed to being second-best and being useless and not getting water time and knowing im never getting a race this season....its just upsetting watching all my friends have their sense of unity as a boat and getting excited about upcoming races and ...not getting to be part of that.

i just want a weekend home to get away from all things rowing and then i'd be good to go and handle the upsettness... :/

but alas, i don't get to return home until may...sigh.