i don't know what happened, how it happened, or even exactly when. but i've been overwhelmed with this incedible sense of purpose, confidence, direction the entire time since i've come back to school (okay so maybe that answers the when).
it's amazing:
-my room is organized (i'm not a traditionally organized person)
-i'm eating healthy (i've actually cut soda & junk food out of my diet [okay except for that cupcake last night but that was an exception] & have lost six pounds since coming to school)
-i have more work to do than ever this semester but i'm handling it well & for the first time in my life i'm truly studious (i had all my homework done for the week by wednesday!)
the most exciting part is how confident i am in my future career choice.
since 7th grade i've known two things: i love English & i want to be a teacher. since 10th grade i've known two more things: i love literature & i want to be an English teacher.
but i'm kinda starting to understand why. i really love helping people. i love being the behind the scenes person who can influence a person's life. this sounds painfully cheesy and i'm sure of the 4,099876,0978765,097865875 students i'll ever have i'll maybe actually have an impact on like 1.2 of them, but the possibility is thrilling. we've just read "push" in my adolescent literature class and it's confirmed something else i strongly believe--everyone deserves a chance because you truly have no idea the truth of anyone's life.
also i really just need to express: i fucking love keats. we've read so many keats poems in the past two semesters (engl 310--thank you dr L--& engl 397 --thank you dr M) & the wonderful thing is i get it. & also that the jason segel lookalike/actalike in my brit lit class thinks i'm wonderfully brilliant so that's always a plus! :)
how about a shout-out to a fave hs english teacher who never actually taught you?
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