finding out true love is blind (brown girl)

missing S...this is hard. it might just be me....but i feel like S needs to get his shit together sometimes and want to talk to me....every time i squeeze in a phone call (like once a week at this rate) judging by his one-word responses i'm clearly wasting his time or boring him. ugh.

basically spent that past three hours on ffffound.com delicious :) also found a fun post-secret-y type blog...things we forget ...clever idea :)

in other news, i dyed my hair dark brown yesterday.....i absolutely love it. and i have that blue eyes/brown hair effect goin' for me which is also fun.

this weekend was wild...

friday i went to alpha sig lake house...bumpin' fiesta until a new pledge fell 20 feet off the balcony and had to be flown to greenville (still don't know if he's okay :/ ), but i had more fun pre-gaming with Elav, J, and Elav's boy toy e-rock and his friend sFn (we made a vat of macaroni and four million margaritas and just chatted for like two hours).

saturday, 12 hours, 9 different locations....epic. i'm gonna say meeting baracuda boy and or corderoy blazer boy were highlights of the night...but given that things are STILL coming back to me...haha we'll see how those hold up.

anyway, Sunday i slept in til 2, went to lunch with hs friend Cy at Moe's and exchanged epic tales, came home, e-rock/Elav picked me up to go buy hair dye, came home, went to a S.O.S. interest meeting...S.O.S. is a service organization for student athletes run by one of our varsity girls on rowing, so i hitched a ride there and signed up....maybe i'm a dork but i'm actually pretty excited about it...we get to work with middle school students (who are at-risk of not finishing their education) throughout the year by having a "TigerTalk" buddy who we email with all year, as well as going out in teams of 8 or so to talk at assemblies at schools about being a college student athlete and things like that....it sounds really fun :)

ffffound favorites for the day:

ugh

i get irritable when people can't just be straight up. just got shot down in thirty different ways all in one day....i need real friends....college is frustrating in this respect. i thought i was making friends but apparently something about me is expressly wrong and therefore i deserve to be treated like shit. thanks guys. so now i'm miserable again....i thought college would be the place where i could finally be happy...wtf is wrong that i'm not happy??? i just wanna drive for like five hours. oh and i really want to find that waterfall DAVY has in his photo album...

bo burnham

officially searching for a date/buddy to attend the bo burnham concert with me.

Hi, my name is Desperate.

sweet tea

getting increasingly discouraged.

southern people are not my cup of tea.

convergence and the office

first day of classes....went well!

my psychology professor was basically michael scott reincarnate...i can't decide if this will prove amusing or annoying...we'll see in the coming day, right?

english i can i'm going to love, our teacher? professor? is a grad student here and is super young and almost schwarzy-ish (which of course, is comforting). the class is small, and i'm one of 5 girls out of 19 people....nice? but all the people in the class seemed nice and fun so it seems like it'll be great fun. i can tell wednesdays and mondays will be nice...only two classes and all done by 1:10...success!

also, ran into Ry on campus for the millionth time, it's crazy i've seen him and another kid from high school all over the place, but have yet to run into Cy....weird how paths converge and don't like that.

meanwhile, S moved into school yesterday and i miss him terribly...i hope he's having tons of fun, it certainly seems like he's loving it... (but i hope he's not forgetting about me in the process :/ )....this is gonna be hard.

have a physical for rowing this afternoon, then sleeeepingg forever sounds about right :)